Saturday, August 25, 2007
School's not out yet and it feels like the end of the year already, what with teachers saying it's been fun teaching us and lectures and tutorials winding down. I'm glad for that.. they were getting monotonous anyway.
Reflections:
I went around class today collecting autographs for my class photo. I'm touched by what my classmates wrote for me, thanking me for being a nice-guy, a responsible rep, and a good friend.
If there's one thing I regret, its not reaching out to more people in class. Especially the 4 girls. Sometimes when I look at them sitting together and try to think of things to say about them my mind just goes blank. And I can imagine the expression on their faces as they try to think about things to say about me. It's sad that I'm still at square 1 with them at the end of two years, same as where everyone started.
But I'm grateful to all the friends I have for what they've done for me. They're what I go to school for. Every morning I'd go to my OG table and be joined by li ying, li xing, yonghan and their friends, and I'd always feel blessed for being in their company. And today li ying did the nicest thing, giving us apples with a =) on them and wishing me luck for prelims. Seriously how many people do stuff like this? Its just awesome. Being OGL's possibly one of the best things that happened to me in RJ, and I'd give anything to be able to go back to relive orientation again. Were there things I could've done differently? Definitely. Not being so "admin-guy" and reaching out more would've helped, though some things..can't be helped. If people have their own cliques and friends to be with I'm happy for them.
And the guys too! Can't forget about them. These are the people I hang around with all the time, and I guess that we've become so used to each other that no subject's taboo among us. Eating together in RI, playing chess, ponning (occasionally), struggling to pass NAPFA, making fun of Kevin, HOTA, talking rubbish in class, more chess, DOTS, H3; man it's tough not to feel nostalgic about those times.
Can't forget the shooting people either. I went down to the range on Thursday to seek some closure. Deep in my heart, I know I'm not going back to shooting in the future. The sport's gonna be the same, but the people aren't. It's awesome to make people feel loved and be loved by others, and these are the sort of things that are only possible when you've got people like Wilson, Ruru, Eme, Leonard, Lala, Anna and all the other people whom I've had fun training and hanging out with.
And last but not least, my best friends Matt and Zack. You guys have kept me sane for the past 6 years, and I don't think there's been a period of more than two days when we don't have three-way convos with each other and talk about games and schoolwork, and all the random things under the sun. I took matt's fren test a couple of days ago and scored 90, which is amazingly enough higher than what his bro scored. Only got 30 for Zack's test though, coz beyond RI i don't know much about his (mysterious) past. Who knew he was from MENSA? Haha hopefully we'll make it through prelims and As together.
Now I think I'm going to embark on a hiatus. It's time to focus all my energies on doing well for prelims and A's. The final stretch. Once again, to all these people. Thankyou. For the love that you give. Keep in touch.
Love,
Chris
A man without ambition is dead. A man with ambition but no love is dead. A man with ambition and love for his blessings here on earth is ever so alive.
ABUNDANT PEACE :)
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